May Wrap Up and June Energy Update

Hello beautiful people, I wanted to come on today and give an end of the month wrap up. I felt it was important for this month of May, because there was just so much going on and talk a little bit about some of the different areas of experiences that many of us have had. If you find you can identify with it, it might help in understanding why some of this is going on.

So May was a very, very packed month, with many, many experiences. The energies were through the roof, and they just seem to be getting stronger and stronger and stronger. There doesn't seem to be as much respite anymore, between one wave and the other wave, they all kind of seem to be blending into each other these days. And, you know, we're ready for it! It must mean we're ready for it.

So I remember the beginning of May, some things that were coming up for me and I noticed things were coming up with some of the sessions, deep, deep layers of shame. That goes right back to early childhood types of core belief, shame. It felt like we were getting at the real essence of some of the programming that was leading to this type of shame from such an early age, and it felt like we were ready to almost take out all the roots. For some, I think most of the roots were taken out for others, there's probably going to be another wave that's going to allow a digger deep. For some, the shame is much deeper and needs to go even deeper. So you may have felt those moments where you just were feeling terrible. You may not even identify that it was shame, but you were just feeling bad about yourself.

So just know that there's some really deep layers of shame that came up in early May, that was followed by a flow of betrayal and rejection coming up. They may have shown up in your own life in the form of somebody betraying you, or feeling really disappointed by somebody in their actions towards you, or their lack of action towards you. There may have been some expectations of something you were wanting from them, but it didn't come. It gives us an opportunity to really look at that because again, everybody's playing, you know, these actor roles for all of us. So if you found you got triggered with a betrayal, then that would have been a good time to go in and look at "well how am I betraying myself? What's my personal betrayal going on for me?" Just really taking a look at that and see what you find as you go in and dig deeper.

There was a lot of rejection happening. Either in your actual life or you were feeling rejected by family or friends, people that were important to you. And again, use that as your opportunity to look at personal rejection, "how am I rejecting myself?" What are parts of me that I've rejected either because my family didn't approve of them or society didn't approve of them. Many of us came here as that kid who didn't quite fit in and didn't understand why the world worked the way it did. So our inner being, our inner spirit wanted us to operate in a certain way, but it wasn't acceptable. We rejected those parts of us to take on these personas of what is acceptable in our society. So take a look at all of those and see where there may still be work to do for you. Because these are really the really big ones.

Mid month, we got some serious serious energy spikes. The fatigue was off the chart for a lot of people including myself, there were days where sleeping 12 hours and then needing naps. In the day when I wasn't sleeping was very common and I was hearing that as well from other people. There was internal shifting movement happening that was requiring that sleep. And those energy spikes were also requiring a lot of downtime for their integration. So that was sort of the mid month period.

There were a lot of ego deaths happening. I've talked about ego death before in my weekly group last year, where you start to question whether you're meant to be here, or maybe it's time for you to check out. Usually, that is, because a part of your core programming that you had, or stories or belief systems you had, have now been processed. With the energy that came in, a lot of stuff got processed, and new aspects of us opened up so that way more of our higher self could come in. As we expanded, and in that expanded space, more of our higher self came in, and there was no longer room for some of these energetic bubbles of stories and programs anymore. Those stories and programs then disintegrated. As those bubbles have stories and programs disintegrate, it feels like you don't know who you are anymore. We've become so used to having these bubbles of stories and programs hanging off of our energetic fields. For a long time. I mean, a lot of these have been there our whole life. Sometimes they get bigger, sometimes they get smaller, sometimes they morph. The extra baby bubbles are added to them as our story or program builds momentum over time. As some of these bubbles disintegrated, and that energy transmuted back into pure potential energy, neutral energy that was then reintegrated into our bigger fields, it started to feel like, gosh, I don't know who I am. Who am I was a loss of identity and the identity in terms of that facade identity, those versions of us that have been created by our ego, to, again, allow us to function in this life. So just know that that has happened, and will continue to happen.

So you have those moments where you're like, I don't know who I am anymore, I feel lost. I don't know, I don't recognize myself. I feel like my soul is not here. And it could be that there are moments where that is happening. But the bigger picture here is that you're going through a huge transformation, we're all going through a huge transformation. So that was sort of the third week of May that I noticed a lot of that started to come on. That theme is still continuing. And the depression theme is continuing. As some of these energy spikes have come in, as some of these bubbles have disintegrated, and you've lost parts of your identity. There's a whole morphing that's going on, and there may be a need, and it's not the case for everybody but there may be a need to go into real isolation. In that isolation, you just may feel like you don't want to do anything. It's a bit of a struggle to get yourself to do your day-to-day tasks. That that may be going on for you, okay? If that's the case, really allow yourself to be with it, observe it. Give yourself the time you need. Give yourself the care the TLC that you need. If you find that as you are going into this phase that you're really critiquing yourself wondering what's wrong with you then that is perfect, okay, because those programs from childhood, where you learn to beat yourself up, where you learn to not love your inner child are coming up. And look at that part of you that is feeling the need to criticize feeling the need to beat yourself up, okay? So look at that part of you and really do some work with it and see what happens. So that started in May, it's going to continue on into June.

June is going to be time of a lot of introspection for some, it's also going to be a time of real expansion for others, some people are going to really be starting to take off, and others are going to need to go through a deeper time that feels heavy. Okay, and it feels like "why am I shutting the world out?" But it's really, really necessary. If you are experiencing that it is really necessary to go through that phase. Allow yourself to hermit, allow yourself to isolate. So that's coming up in June.

I just want to go back to me for a second. Certain energies came in, this was probably in between the first and the second week of May, where it just caused the frontal lobe to light up so bright, and expand out so bright. You may have felt like your your brain was disappearing, if you allow those energies to come in. And if you were really sitting with them, you may have really felt that. Then energy went all the way down the spinal cord and down into the sacrum. That energy is coming in. The foundation is being laid with that energy to then allow some of that energy to with some of the additional waves of that are going to come through that energy is going to then get another boost. It's going to start to expand out into the rest of you. Okay, so right now it's been sitting in your spinal cord down in your sacrum, and it's going to start to expand out into the rest of you. So watch for that and be aware of that. You can sit in meditation, connect with that energy and you can listen to it, you can communicate with it if you want, because it may, you may be able to discern for yourself, what its purpose is and what it's here to do for you. From what I can see so far is it's here to really start to shift us into a much bigger Human. So that's something I really wanted to bring in before I went on to talking about more about June.

The other thing that's happened in May, that you will see continue happening in June is you may feel that you've been presented with a crossroads, you may feel that you've had these moments where you're like, I could do this, or I could do this. We are now being presented with two options for timelines. One timeline is going to be in a more expanded state and one timeline is going to take us into a bit more time to go deeper into some of our wounding. Okay, and neither is good or bad. Neither is right or wrong. It all depends on which one you have more resonance for right now. If you do find you need to go deeper into the harmony, not to say the harmony is bad, but and this timeline thing is different from the harmony that I'm talking about. One of these timelines that you're being presented with maybe a more contracted state that you need to go into to allow yourself to do some more of that inner work. Really allow yourself to be with that inner work as much as you can. I know sometimes If we just want to distract ourselves from it and not go into it, and been there, done that myself, you're going into that contracted state to stay in the mindfulness of it that this is happening for a reason. You can allow yourself to move through it with as much flow as possible.

There's obviously resistance that comes up at times when we're trying to move through things that are deeper, heavier, more charged, more emotionally charged from all of our experiences in life. So if that's happening for you, just be aware of that, do some writing about it. Whatever tools that you use, use those to help you get through it. If you need extra help, then reach out to whatever facilitator, whatever method works for you. So these timeline options are really, really apparent, and have been for several weeks now. Some people are ready to go into that more expanded state of timeline, and they are going to start to springboard into a different trajectory within their own lives. It's going to start to feel more expanded, more joy is going to start to come in, and more flow, more organic flow, in your way of being in how your service to others process is going. It'll feel so beautiful. So some are going and are ready for that place. Those that are going into more of a contracted place, just know, it's because there's more work to do, there may be more work in your ancestral lineage that requires that of you, there may be more work that you've taken on as a soul at this time, that requires you just to go in that direction. It's okay if you are needing that, while others are, you know, going into a more expanded state, it's all different seasons that we're all going through. It's totally fine to be doing that at this time if you need to.

That is where things are at at the moment, June is going to start to lighten up. As the sun starts to move more into the summer phase in the western northern hemisphere, June will start to lighten up, May tends to be a much more intense month in general. As we head into July, it'll be interesting to see what starts to pop up then. So June will start to feel better, there will be more ease and there will be more flow in general. If you're needing to be more isolated and hermit for a while, great, go for it. Really allow it to flow, allow yourself to surrender to it. If you're ready to go into a more expanded state, perfect, enjoy it for all there is that it can offer you and explore all of the different kinds of inspirations that you may be receiving.

Much love to all of you. And I hope everyone is doing well on their own trajectories, their own processes at this time.